L&L

Let's run to the ocean, get lost in the sea.
We'll escape together, and then we'll be free.
We will forget all our troubles, ignore all the pain, be free of the rumors and fall asleep to the rain.

"For I never saw true beaity, till this night" -Romeo



In high school I rolled my eyes at the thought of reading Shakespeare, but now it makes so much sense, and is so beautiful.

It's Time For Us To Take A Chance

Today has been a peaceful day.
I was watching 'Coco Chanel' and realized that to be independant one must first be alone.
You cannot be with someone and still call youself independant...it doesn't work that way.
I feel like I need a change of pace, something new and exciting.
I crave an adventure! But no one is ready for the next step in life like I am.
Sometimes I wish I had money, so that then I could exprience the world from a different point, but then I tell myself "What is the point of working to make a name for yourself when you have money".
We're all trying to get famous...right?
WRONG! I am not trying to get famous I am just trying to find what's "real", and to discover who I am.
My goal in life is to be happy.
I want to be able to liv ea comfortable life and support my Mother in her old-age.

I don't feel like waiting, I am finally ready to take control of my own life.
I liek to think that I am free, even when I'm not.
Humans do nto have free will! We abide laws and follow direction, we may think we have the ability to say 'no' but we don't.

I can't find someone that's at the same level as me.
People stress out, they freak out, and they make a big deal.
I'm not that kind of person.
Under pressure I dance and sing.
Even though I can't dance, and can't sing.
Those are two ways I release pressure.

I can't sit around.
Sitting around KILLS me.
Spending a day in bed is exhausting!
I would rather go on a walk, clean, make, design!
I hate sitting.
My mind is constantly thinking up new ideas and projects, and I need CONSTANT change!

I need a boy who's at my level.
Someone who will jump on the bed with me and scream at the top of his lungs.
A hopeless romantic that will through fits of anger and bouts of excitement...like me!
Someone who likes to create and do.
Someone who wants to make a difference.

If Only, If Only

You called when I wanted.
You knew who I was.
You asked "How's it going",
or knew where I was.

I wish you knew more,
at the same time,
I wish you knew less.

You know more about me,
than I'd care to accept.

Not a day goes by that I don't think of you,
I scream at myself for still feeling for you.

I know what you did.
And you know who I am.
I accept the fact that we both did a bad,
things they do change,
but we always come back.

And it doesn't matter, if we are not sad.
As long as we're happy, we can live in this land.
But once it goes black we have to go back,
we don't want the pain, we want a pure life.

I love you a lot, and I know you don't care.

But if you wonder, if I'm telling the truth, just remember the times that I had spent with you
I hope that you'll know, that I'll always be there, and you'll always be mine, even if I'm not there.